Review Experiment Part 2

I did it, I have self published Ward Five to Kindle and paperback. Why? I hear you ask, It’s simple really. It is the best way of gaining reader feedback and exposure to a wider audience.

In January of this year, I had the best positive feed back I have had since I almost had a screenplay made for television when I was eighteen that sadly fell through due to funding. I had an offer from a publisher!

The offer, to start was a partnership offer, through my research this seems quite popular nowadays, in the ever changing world of publishing and the accessibility of peoples works. This approach makes sense to me, it means you take on some of the risk in costs whilst getting started. You are then released in a smaller area to gauge the audiences appetite and you build from there. The feedback I received from this publisher regarding the story of Ward Five was invaluable to me but the unfortunate reality was, it was badly timed, January was a busy month. My partner and I became parents, the car died and needed replacing. Actually, the car died on the way to the hospital when my partner was in labour but that is its own little story! And it meant i found myself in the situation where i just couldn’t realistically find or commit to the proposed fee, which in fairness appeared quite reasonable. So I had to decline the offer.

I started thinking, if i could get one offer I could get another but one of the things publishers seem to want is a crystal ball prediction that they’re on to a good investment. I can’t give them that, surely no-one can, but what if, I could at least build upon my small data set of feedback that I had gathered from my first review experiment. What if i could gain enough input from real readers, real everyday people, not just a person sat in an office projecting personal preference on to a manuscript. Hence reason 1 as to how I ended up pursuing another self published project.

Reason 2 is a little more personal and is kind of two fold. I never self promote to people I know, it’s this little hang up I have, I get embarrassed and don’t want to look like an idiot to people who matter to me and in some cases to people who don’t even matter to me, it’s one of my vulnerabilities where peoples opinions mean something. So, for the most part, I keep it hidden and don’t talk about the passion I’ve had since I learnt to read and write. I envy friends of mine who share their passions so energetically, positively & confidently. I think of one in particular, who is a great musician and likes to share his new compositions with me to get an opinion, he does Instagram live sessions singing his own material and no he is not famous or a professional, although I believe like me with writing, that would always be the dream. I admire him for that confidence to be able to put him and his work out there in the ways he does, I wish he could bottle it and sell it to me.

And then, there is my sister who has struggled immensely with Anxiety and then this week, she posted this on her Instagram

For those that are now squinting at their screens it reads:

“The brightest star in the room can be the one who hurts the most. Since January I have struggled with my panic attacks more than ever I have had therapy, missed endless days of work, scratched my face and stomach to shreds trying to breathe. Yet still I had an interview got a promotion throughout all of this. I’ve shown the world how I love to sing and if you don’t know me personally you would have no idea. Remember the biggest smiles can hide a thousand fears”

You will also notice that there’s hashtag #mentalhealthawarenessweek which links me to the second part of my reason two. It is the main theme that runs through this story, it affects everyone you know and everyone you don’t and in this weird point in history whilst we’re all in lock down it is affecting everyone in the most profound ways. So, Mental health awareness week in the UK seemed like a no brainer to me, to attempt to both over come my own fears and anxieties and share this story in this way.

So please have a read, write a review. It is only

Available on Kindle and paperback right now!

It’s Here!

Concordia Book Cover v0.1So here we are again, Judgement Day.

You can now purchase on Amazon Kindle UK the sequel to The Break entitled Concordia.

So tell your friends and anyone who will listen we are live and to get reading!

I hope you enjoy this one as much as the first, I actually really enjoyed writing the sequel, it was quite a ride again!!

I look forward to reading your reviews and as always Thank you for your support.

 

For you guys in the states click here

All Future Ramblings Are Of My Own Opinion

So I’ve been kind of sucky of late with this whole blogging business haven’t I? Don’t worry folks no answer needed! I go AWOL I come back with a blog promising not to do it again so naturally I go AWOL again. I wish I had some amazing excuse prepared like I’ve finished my polished version of my sequel to The Break and it’s going to be out soon but that would be a lie as after finishing reading my first draft I decided to scrap the lot and start again, a hundred and two thousand words deleted in a flash. Best way really I want something fresh and new I don’t want old ideas to taint the new ones. Alternatively I wish I could tell you I had an entirely new amazing project completed my water lilies, my 9th symphony, my thinker, my Bohemian Rhapsody but who am I kidding I have one chapter of a new idea and another four chapters of a different idea to that.

The truth is I have an attention span of a small child (and some might argue a mentality to match) but there are just too many distractions around me over the last six months to be able to really sink my teeth in to my writing and blog about it. Then I got to wondering about why I set up the blog in the first place and concluded that it was initially only to promote my debut self published novel The Break but as I look about over my previous posts I realised I would blog about more than just that process, then I realised I like ranting aimlessly to the void of cyber space about nothing particular. I did after all call my blog The Eccentric Ramblings of an Amateur and so I present to you a new look, I was going to go with a new title to The Eccentric Raging’s of an Amateur but as my rage would only last for around two sentences and then turn in to ramblings I thought the title was well suited as it was!

So with this new look WILL come more frequent ramblings but not just of the writing kind this time, I’m just going to ramble and you guys can read along or not this time, they’ll be no holding back, please note all ramblings will be of my own opinions but feel free to join in being opinionated.

So on the subject of rambling and being opinionated I offer you this simple piece of advice in the event that something makes you extremely angry, engage your Brain and think before reacting, unlike myself who has just sent a complaint E-mail to the NHS without consulting the person who has been affected by their appallingness. In fact I’ve never really been trained in the art that is think before you act/speak which I’m sure one day will land me in some serious knee deep Shite but until that day I’m here for entertainment purposes and pre written speeches!!! Besides surely holding back results in missed opportunities does it not?

Anyway to conclude this eccentric “I’m Back For Good” blog I’m rewarding all my faithful readers/followers with cheapness!!! All the ranting aside I do actually plan to have the Sequel to The Break (Working title Concordia) out for next spring. I thought it would be a good idea to get yourselves acquainted with the first book first and so if you boogie on down to your Amazon Kindle store you will see it is currently retailing at 77p for you UK folks and a groovy 99c for you USA chaps or if your more iTunes you can hop on over there where it’s 99p. This will be the case until the end of the year, have a read let me know what you think, leave a review and all that Jazz and before you say anything newbie’s I am aware there are some grammatical/spelling errors(check out previous rantings for an explanation)

But cheers for the support and cheers for hanging in there with me in my absences’ it’s been a crazy 2012 and it’s not quite over yet!

The Ball Is Rolling

So you know those incredibly happy people, who walk around smiling all the time, who think everything is amazing and beautiful blah blah blah? Well I think I’m becoming one of them! I’ve gone from wanting to punch the above described type and being incredibly grumpy to grinning like a lunatic 24/7 and frankly it’s making my cheeks hurt.

You know people say the three most stressful things you’ll do is move house, get married and have kids, I’m going to add a fourth, publish a book and I’m going to tell you I’m currently in the process of doing two of these, Gee I bet you can’t guess which two by now! For those of you that are visiting for the first time it’s the house and the book!! Yes, I am a self confessed Nutter.

So what’s happy about being stressed? Well for one, the Hell Hounds (Estate agents!) came back with their tails between their legs, which means we got the house we wanted which equals celebration number one! And then my book went live on Amazon Kindle which clearly equals celebration number two! And despite the headache of formatting, proofreading, endless editing, crazy sleepless nights thinking how to tell your editor you’ve made yet more changes and they’ll need to read the infernal thing again, not to mention it’s bound to still contain errors that everyone missed so I’ll look like a complete Idiot, I’m still Ecstatic and despite, the crazy estate agent negotiations, depressing solicitors’ fees, having to sort out surveys and mortgages and loads of other stuff I haven’t a clue about, I’m STILL ecstatic.

I remember when I was younger and all grownups were so serious about everything, I vowed never to be like that but now I’m way too old for that and it’s weird because now I’m here, I’m loving the grown up stuff, I’m sure there’s people out there who’ve been like, “Buying a house? How ten years ago!” Well then you must surely remember the rush of your offer being accepted, meeting with your solicitor, making it official, getting the keys, (I’m going to be a nightmare when this happens!). As someone who is only at the beginning stages of this adventure I can tell you already it feels like it’s Christmas Eve everyday!!!! And that’s why I never wanted to grow up and do grown up things because I never wanted to lose that feeling of excitement, that every day is an adventure and it wasn’t that grownups were so serious it’s just that when we grow up our adventures change.

I’m sure you’re probably thinking “what about the book? She’s barely said anything about it. tell me about the book” Well people, I intend to, just not quite yet, I will start breaking out the balloons and party poppers, especially when we go live on ibooks and obviously we have the printed paperback, so watch this space for more info it’s coming soon!